Once I sat down and thought about it, I realised how lovely it would be to have a child. After all, if I didn’t have children now, when would I? My career was only going to get busier, and I had always thought that one day I would be a mother. Perhaps it was a blessing. I pulled out a book on pregnancy I’d found in Jared’s bookshelf and began to sift through it as I waited for Chace.
It was several hours before he arrived home. Sitting him down on the sofa next to me, I began to explain.
“Chace- I’ve been feeling ill for a few weeks now-” I was stopped mid sentence as he cut across me,
“Oh god, are you okay? I’ll call my doctor!”
“No no don’t do that, I’m fine.” I took a deep breath. “Chace- I went to see the doctor and she told me that… I’m pregnant!”
“I’m going to be a father?” He said quietly.
“Yes Chace- I don’t know how you feel about it but-”
“I’m thrilled!” He interrupted, “I can’t believe it, this is amazing! Cm’here” He said as he pulled me close to him. I was so glad he was happy and supportive, I didn’t know if I could handle being a single mother.
Jumping off the sofa and pulling me up, he wrapped his arms around me and reassured me of his commitment to both me and our unborn child by kissing me over and over.
“Lets go to bed” he whispered into my ear. Hopefully my pregnant body wouldn’t put him off me.
Chace was amazing in so many ways, but when I asked him to move in (to the annoyance of Jared, he was already sick of having one room mate, never mind two) I finally grasped his workaholic ways. We would go to sleep together, but when I was woken by the babies kicks during the night, I’d find him in the kitchen, hard at work on his laptop, or in a conference call to Sunset Valley in the living room.
As my body grew, so did my doubts about Chace’s child-rearing abilities. He was already working himself flat out in order to get a promotion, how would he cope with a child in his life?
I put the doubts about Chace out of my mind, and as I could no longer work due to my pregnancy, I threw myself into practice for the auditions I planned on attending after the birth and as soon as I had regained my pre-pregnancy figure.
After a few boring months of traipsing round the apartment and reading every pregnancy book I could get my hands on, followed by mountains of food, I had almost resigned myself to the fact I was basically housebound, Chace never offered to take me anywhere, he said it was unsightly for a pregnant woman to be seen ‘gallivanting around town’ – what was that about? He was probably just stressed that day. So I was surprised to get a call from Marlon, who I hadn’t seen since I left his employ.
“Hey Lily, what are you doing tonight?” He asked down the phone,
“Nothing, just busy being pregnant!”
“What! Since when were you pregnant! This just shows how long we haven’t seen each other in! You have to come out with me tonight. We’ll catch up.”
“Oh I don’t know- I’m not exactly the life and soul of the party, being 7 months pregnant and all…” I replied tentatively,
“Nonsense! Meet me at the address I’m about to text you at 8, it’s a birthday party.” He had hung off before I could protest. I thought I would go. Chace was working late tonight, and it was only going to be another boring night of baby friendly food Chace insisted I ate and a movie. Arriving at the apartment complex 20 minutes late, I was thrilled to see Marlon waiting for me. It had been so long!
He looked just a gorgeous as he had before, but I didn’t even want him to make a move now, like I had so many times before. I was in a relationship now, and expecting a child!
“Hi!” I exclaimed as I finally waddled over to him, “You look great, unlike me!” I joked,
“Shut up! Your glowing” He chided with a huge smile.
The party, which was in the basement, turned out to be a complete dud, with only a few people in attendance. Awkwardly, the assistant from Mr. Winnerton’s office was at the party, and she delivered a very frosty look to me.
“Marlon, I thought this was going to be a little more of an… upmarket party.” I whispered as I surveyed the practically deserted room with a lone woman playing the guitar.
“Look- you might as well have fun… While I call the driver and get us out of here.” He said with a scowl. I followed his advice and threw myself into dancing. I felt invigorated, I had barely moved in months!
After dropping me off at home, I thought how fun it had been dancing, (even though Marlon had scowled in the corner through the half hour we waited for the car) and I thought I’d definitely get out some more. I was thrilled to get a wonderful massage from a very worried Chace when I walked in the door. It seemed as if its not that he didn’t want me going out, he was just worried about me!
It felt like only a short time later that my water broke as I was relaxing in the sitting room.
I didn’t know if I could make it to the hospital, Chace was, of course, working, and I didn’t even dare walk to the elevator to call a cab, I was so nervous, but I knew I could do this if I tried.
Taking a deep breath, I began to push.
A few hours later I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl who me and Chace had discussed naming, and decided on Arielle. She was so beautiful, I couldn’t believe that she was made inside me.
“Oh Chace!” I excalimed, throwing myself into his arms as he arrived home later that night, “I gave birth! Arielle’s sleeping in the bedroom”
“I can’t believe you did it all on your own, never do that again.” He said firmly. “I love you, and I love Arielle, I’m going to go see her” He added as he pecked me on the cheek.
I could see that Chace loved Arielle just as much as I did, although he spent much less time with her than me due to his work commitments. I did however, plan on evening this balance as soon as my maternity leave was up.
On my last night of maternity leave, Chace returned home seeming extremely skittish.
“Chace, whats up?” I asked, “What are you doing?” I was confused, he was kneeling down, had he hurt himself or something?
“Lily. We have a child now, we’re beginning to build a life together, and I think we should do that as a married couple.” Although it sounded more like a business proposition than a true proposal, I was thrilled, especially at the huge diamond he pulled out!
I was going to be married! The ring was so beautiful, and I couldn’t wait to be bonded with Chace forever!
“Thank you so much, I can’t wait! I love you.” I said as I looked into his eyes. I had finally said it. It as about time, we had a child together and we still hadn’t professed our love for each other.
I waited for his response, no one had ever told me they loved me, bar my parents, and I felt Chace was the man for me.
“Lily- I… I adore you too.” He said as he stroked my cheek.
“What!” I screamed, “That is not the response you give when someone tells you they love you!”
“Look I’m sorry but I just don’t feel that way, give it time sweetie, or would you prefer me to lie?” He raised a quizzical eyebrow.
“You… You don’t love me?”
“Cm’here, things are so great, I want to marry you, we have a child, what do words really mean?” He said as he came towards me.
“Back off!” I screamed, I couldn’t believe I had a child with someone who didn’t love me, how could I marry him now?
I didn’t have any idea what I was going to do next, a fiancée who wasn’t in love with me, who also doubled as the father of my child. Should I just marry him anyway, perhaps love would come in time…